"New Chapter" in Japan, Isn't About Japan At All

Originally posted to the blog titled Pagan in Portland.

That Divine telegram was sent, via my friend Miss Renee, an astrologer and tarot reader whom I met for the first time during a sunny September day in 2009. Her message was about long-distance travel to Japan next year.

My heart skipped a beat! My thirteen year dream of going to Japan was an option? I studied the language both formally and informally for years! I would daydream about home-stay experiences in high school.

After her initial message, Japan started to manifest in other ways. When I would spend time with my friend Akiko, an exchange student, or celebrate the Japnese holiday Shichi-Go-San with Mia, the little girl I babysat. In January, I began looking for jobs in Japan online. At this time I was unemployed and the same week, a call came through for a job I didn’t even apply for, a management position that included a nice salary to actualize my dream.

Messages continued to come my way through people; Japanese strangers, friends, networking acquaintances all presenting different options. The day before my birthday, which included a personal, intension and powerful ritual meditation, I ran into an acquaintance from the Japanese Consulate on my bus home, who reminded me of programs with Portland State University.

I applied that week, the same as the Aries New Moon and was granted a meeting on the following Full Moon (see how that works?), and with little to no effort and I was accepted into a summer program to study at Hokkaido University!

The messages about Japan I had been receiving were that this was the catalyst for a new chapter in my life. With this information, I planned to stay in Japan for as long as I could. What would be this new chapter? Working in Japan? Something international? Teaching? I packed my condo up, cancelled my life in the States and bought a ticket for Japan for as long as the country would allow me stay.

I arrived in Japan and was overwhelmed by the isolation, the schoolwork, the complexity of everyday living and the language! I felt as if I had jumped into the Japanese deep end of the pool and was drowning. While in this state, I began to rethink my goal or chapter in Japan. Maybe the new chapter wasn’t about Japan at all.

Remedying myself with English music, coffee, I Love Lucy episodes, skype, video making and listening to spiritual and pagan podcasts of my favourite podkins (Ariel + Feithline Stewart), I began to feel better. Actually, better than better! In the isolation I found solace. Divine solace! Inspiration began to flow and continued for six days!

Then something came to me in a flash, on the Capricorn Full Moon Lunar Eclipse that took place on June 26th, I saw it! My life’s path. It simply materialized as an idea not considered: Natural Medicine!

Coming to Japan was not only a beautiful Divine gift, my dream come true, but this trip has helped me to realize a path that combines my lifestyle, belief-systems and passions.

A Pagan in Portland says work toward your goals, even if you don’t know what they are.

Inspiration from Asia

Originally posted to the blog titled Pagan in Portland.

Where to begin?! I haven’t blogged in almost two months and things move so rapidly, I need to get better at this!

Since last autumn, 2009, I have been receiving messages about going to Asia for a spiritual purpose. Some sort of purpose. My first message came via Renee Dunn, a beautiful and wonderfully gifted local tarot reader and astrologer who mentioned higher learning and traveling in Asia sometime in 2010.

A few more small flashes occurred whether spending time with my friend Akiko talking Japanese in Washington Park or through other small daily affirmations left me looking for jobs via Craigslist.org in January. After instead accepting a position in Portland, my mother was the one who offered me the advise of saving money while I worked out a plan.

Another flash came as I met a girl on the bus, a nihonjin (Japanese person) and she was with a Portland homestay company called ANDEO with homestays and schools in Fukouka, the same city I want to live in, where my friend Akiko is!

Penny after penny later…(pennies are most simple, long-running and abundant affirmation), more Japan flashes came about that I can’t ignore any longer.

Tonight, I met with a friend of mine I’ve known for two years. He and his partner just returned from their Thailand honeymoon. He was filled with such spiritual inspiration and wonderment that it can’t be expressed with words. We connected on such a deep and profound level tonight unlike ever before. We were comfortable sharing spiritual stories with each other that few people heard, he shared his altar space with me, his astrology information and his divination set. And he introduced me to the thought of Thailand…isn’t that the Asian country Miss Renee first mentioned to me?!….I think it is.

He also introduced me to the idea of shamanism, giving me a message pertaining to the practice and teaching of this ancient….art? I don’t really know much about shamanism and won’t pretend to know!


A Pagan in Portland has a lot to consider. Where does clarity come from when you have a multitude of options, like the non-marshmallow pieces of Lucky Charms cereal? Stay tuned…