Originally posted to the blog titled Pagan in Portland.
This past winter, I’ve been on a journey to ‘Let Go and Let Goddess’. My travels have not been without validation, divine interception and the ebb and flow of energy and universal truth. I’ve been recording my experiences as I present my intentions to the God/Goddess and accepting what’s best for me.
Letting go is no walk in the park. It’s a doubled edge sword really, a swirling mass filled with pleasures, difficult challenges, blind faith and the destroying and the disassemble of the facets of my life. In January, while on a winter cabin vacation in Bend with my boyfriend and his friends, I asked the God/Goddess that her will be done and the very next day he was gone. An incredible soul that I felt very connected to, a friend for 2 years and a lover for 1. Without warning, without explanation and without further contact, I had to make my journey to ‘Let Go and Let Goddess’ in the dark and with no hand to hold but perhaps maybe the hand of the Mother and Father.
Prior to the departure of my boyfriend, it was the stripping away of my 8-year relationship to my partner, the destruction to my ownership of my home, the exodus of my beautiful cat-babies and the termination of my long-term employment with Starbucks. Coupled with the letting go of negative Christian dogma, mundane dilemmas and people who no longer or never contributed to my development as a person.
I believe with these transformational changes, it opened me up to adventures that have taken me aback almost daily. I’ve become open to the Universe on a path, uncharted. It seems that each day is filled with light, love, the meeting of strangers with a message, experiences with a purpose and a plan aligned with the Goddess.
Wednesday, April 14th was a special day. It was the first New Moon of the astrological year, sometimes referred as the beginning of the New Year. It consisted of the Moon and Sun, both in Aries. And it was my birthday! This special days mediation/ritual work consisted of five intensions for my life in the following year. I made it clear that my intentions are simply MY intentions and are secondary to the plan that the God/Goddess/Universe has for me. My intentions are merely my wishes. They are as follows:
1: Japan; I have acknowledged the divine memos about traveling. I ask for guidance to get there and to find the right people, places and learnings associated with this new chapter.
2: My Ex-boyfriend; who has recently reentered my life. I need clarity regarding his role to my life because the messages I receive are clear about having him in my life in some capacity.
3: Friends with Purpose; I am enjoying the abundance of people I have been meeting and ask to continue to send friends my way that can only make me a stronger person and assist me on my spiritual path work. Also the necessary stripping of those personalities that take away from me.
4: Spiritual Development; as if I could ever get away from this in my life, but I just want to straighten and recognize it, always.
5: My Life’s Plan; a couple of flyers have been pinned to the bulletin board, but I ask for clarity. Again for the right people, the right places, the right experiences to mold the clay of my life’s plan into what the Goddess desires for me and to be executed with little or no sarcasm.
My suggestion for my readers, my friends, is to try to begin to look at experiences in life for what they are. Be positive and remember that what you put out, comes back. Yes, karma. It’s totes for real ya’ll. Record your experiences and look for the learning in each one. Be open, be open, be open!
What are some of your occurrences with the Universe and just letting go?
A Pagan in Portland says feng shui your universal karma, let it go and enjoy this ride! And always remember to breathe.